Surrender

Today I’m starting over again. I’ve made a decision to give up my place and enter the Helping Up Mission.  It was a decision that had to be made.  I literally killing myself here. Everything in me wanted to stay, but why. Heck these are just things that I have here. Things that I wont be able to use if I’m dead. I looked at myself in the mirror and I look terrible. Cant be no more than 160 pounds.  I used to ask how do you surrender? Well this is a surrender. Going to live with over 100 guys in a dorm setting. All most like jail. But not quite. Life’s all about decisions and at least today I’m making a good one, I ‘m chosing to live. Yesterday was my birthday, I’m still here and I still have a chance.

I kind of like bloging. It’s like journaling and if no one sees it than so be it and if they do and respond that all good to. Well its a 45 day blackout period so I wont be able to post anytime soon. But God willing I’ll be back

About hezekiahsblog

My name is Willie Gillyard, AKA "THEYARD" and I thought it would be fun and informative to have a blog that dealt with spiritual and recovery issues. I hope we can make it work
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5 Responses to Surrender

  1. Jane says:

    Dear Willie, I want so much for you to get better. You have extroadinary potential.
    I ask God every day to embrace you and walk with you. Hold on to Him.
    Love you. Peace, Jane

  2. John says:

    Willie,
    You’re in my thoughts and prayers! Let go of making decisions for yourself for right now and follow the path God puts in front of you!

  3. Brendan says:

    Will, I want to be with you in your recovery. I want you to be with me in my recovery. Is it possible?

    • theyard says:

      Hey Brendan I would love to have you with me on my journey in recovery and I hope that I could contribute something to your journey as well. Thanks

  4. Brendan says:

    Thanks for updating us Willie. I need your support

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